It’s a strange and rare occurrence to sit in the audience, about to watch your own dance company perform. But four weeks ago that’s exactly where I found myself, squirming uncomfortably in the third row of the Levy Dance Salon, where for change dance collective had been invited to perform along with many other seasoned artists. I felt as though I didn’t know exactly what to do with myself, out of place on the wrong side of the stage. I was jealous of the performers that got to share their passion in front of all of us, and I was feeling left out seeing all of my good friends and fellow company members getting ready to perform.
The circumstances in which I found myself in the third row also caused me to fall even deeper into my pity party. I had recently dealt with some health issues and spent the week prior in and out of emergency rooms and urgent cares, both abroad and in the US. As in all stressful or emotional situations in my life, dance was what I wanted and needed to turn to, but that was the one thing I felt unable to do in that moment. Don’t worry though, as in all good stories, there is a happy ending.
It was just a few minutes into sitting in that third row, and witnessing people sharing their craft, their emotions, and their passion, that I was able to find that dance therapy that I so needed. I was reminded of a lesson that I’ve learned over and over again, that dance can be a healer and a catharsis for anyone touched by it, whether it be the performer, the choreographer or the viewer. I realized I was lucky to be able to watch people I love doing what they love. It reiterated to me what for change dance collective, as a company, is all about. We’ve always existed under the belief that dance can create and inspire change in a community. And I got to witness that first hand, and felt the change come over me, as an audience member.
This experience completely re-sparked my passion and dedication to what fcdc is doing. Our rehearsal process is also the perfect platform to explore my new found inspiration, allowing everyone a chance to be heard and to express themselves in the dance. We focus on the principle that everyone can and should bring something of their own to what we’re creating, to ultimately be able to dance it and feel it as their own truth. I’m loving creating dance, knowing that people could watch something I’ve contributed to and genuinely feel something in themselves.
Sometimes you need to take a step back, or sit in the audience, to be reminded of the power of what you love. This was a feeling I got to bask in fully during our latest performance at Works in the Works just last weekend. The beauty of this performance series is that you’re seeing pieces in various stages of creation and completion. There is a feedback session at the end where you can hear people’s thoughts on your piece and give your thoughts on theirs. This was my third year performing with fcdc in this show, but no one year is like the last. This year I got to bring with me a whole new set of insights, experiences and outlooks. I loved getting to actually hear exactly in what way our dance moved the people watching it. I got to hear about the power our ten minutes of art had on someone, how we were a part of creating change.
So my hope is, through learning this lesson again, and sharing it, that I can help remind someone like me of the power of art. That I can remind you that whether you are a creator or an appreciator, you are a part of the change. And maybe we’ll even see your face at one of our shows one day, and get the opportunity to inspire a change in you!
Tuesday, November 24, 2015
Tuesday, September 29, 2015
a perspective on our process, by Rosie Ortega
Summer is winding down, the sun is setting earlier each day, and Karl the fog creeps back into the city by the bay. As one season ends another begins, that is the fcdc 2015-2016 dance season! We are back in rehearsal and excited for what lies ahead in the coming months. After a very successful inaugural home season last year, we are excited to regroup, reconnect and continue our mission of dancing for change.This idea of change is one of the constants of fcdc, not only as our company evolves from season to season, but also as we strive to bring change in the realms of social justice and equality using our collective artistic vision to propel that forward. Many of our past performance themes have focused on personal, emotional concepts that although are unique to each member of fcdc, they are also what bond us as a company.
Reflecting on the past 2 seasons I have been a part of fcdc, I have been lucky enough to watch the company flourish and progress. Although it is gratifying to complete a piece and perform for an audience, the rehearsal process leading up to those moments are the hours where I not only love to choreograph and explore new movement, but I also love to watch my fellow dancers’ artistic processes. Rehearsal is the place where the choreographic magic begins. Each dancer brings his or her own unique flair from week to week, building and collaborating as a collective to create something new.
In our last few rehearsals, we have started exploring our next project. WIthout giving away too many details, we have decided to emphasize storytelling and the many stories each of us bring to the table not only as performers and artists, but also as human beings. When we really stop and listen to more than one story, it enables us to grow and understand concepts that may have previously been foreign. I hope to hear more stories in the next weeks and months both in rehearsal and outside, and in turn use those stories to shape and guide the artistic process we practice as we prepare for the next exciting season.
Reflecting on the past 2 seasons I have been a part of fcdc, I have been lucky enough to watch the company flourish and progress. Although it is gratifying to complete a piece and perform for an audience, the rehearsal process leading up to those moments are the hours where I not only love to choreograph and explore new movement, but I also love to watch my fellow dancers’ artistic processes. Rehearsal is the place where the choreographic magic begins. Each dancer brings his or her own unique flair from week to week, building and collaborating as a collective to create something new.
In our last few rehearsals, we have started exploring our next project. WIthout giving away too many details, we have decided to emphasize storytelling and the many stories each of us bring to the table not only as performers and artists, but also as human beings. When we really stop and listen to more than one story, it enables us to grow and understand concepts that may have previously been foreign. I hope to hear more stories in the next weeks and months both in rehearsal and outside, and in turn use those stories to shape and guide the artistic process we practice as we prepare for the next exciting season.
Thursday, January 8, 2015
January 2015 update, by fcdc collaborator Jessica de Leon
For fcdc, 2014 was a year of growth: wonderful new dancers joined our ranks, we collaborated with other talented artists and musicians, and we had the opportunity to work on a handful of meaningful projects. It was a great year filled with a renewed commitment to our mission statement. And 2015 is panning out to be even greater! We are so excited to continue work on a new piece that will premiere at our first home season at 8th Street Studios in Berkeley, February 28 and March 1.
The piece is centered around the idea that the breakage of an object can become part of its history, instead of something to be ashamed of or to hide. This theory is embodied in the ancient Japanese craft of Kintsugi. Meaning “golden rejoining,” Kintsugi takes fine ceramics that have been broken and repairs them with a lacquer resin dusted with gold or silver. The restored object is then more valuable and more beautiful than it was before.
Our collective curiosity in this topic came out of group discussions about forgiveness, expectations, brokenness, and lost causes. I am thrilled that our new company members get the opportunity to start a project with fcdc from the very beginning. Everyone has provided such wonderful, thoughtful contributions to our discussions. The democratic creative process that fcdc employs is unique and part of the reason I love working with this company. Lindsay Wakayama, a dancer that joined us this year, believes that the company and the work “benefits from listening to everyone’s opinions.” Because we are all able to contribute to the life and creation of a piece, each performer feels a sense of ownership. I feel this is especially true about this new work. Savannah Foltz-Colhour, one of our newest members, commented that our process has been “rewarding and makes the movement seem even more relatable.” Savannah says she looks forward to what will come from each rehearsal, and I can’t agree more.
The ideas we’re exploring are big and ripe with potential, both physically and intellectually. But the movement that we’ve generated is very exciting to me. Every week at rehearsal, I’m in awe of how willing each person is to be truthful, vulnerable, and open to sharing their experiences. Rosie Ortega, who has been dancing with us for about a year, said that despite the challenges of our theme, she feels like she has “a strong support system” in the people with whom she makes art. For me, one of the most rewarding parts of starting a new piece with fcdc is discovering new things about the people I dance with. Another new member, Maylise Urrutia, added, “the greater the relationship we have with each other, the more our dance language can really speak to viewers”.
I’m nervous, excited, and curious to share this new work with an audience, and looking forward to our very first home season with this very special piece.
The piece is centered around the idea that the breakage of an object can become part of its history, instead of something to be ashamed of or to hide. This theory is embodied in the ancient Japanese craft of Kintsugi. Meaning “golden rejoining,” Kintsugi takes fine ceramics that have been broken and repairs them with a lacquer resin dusted with gold or silver. The restored object is then more valuable and more beautiful than it was before.
Our collective curiosity in this topic came out of group discussions about forgiveness, expectations, brokenness, and lost causes. I am thrilled that our new company members get the opportunity to start a project with fcdc from the very beginning. Everyone has provided such wonderful, thoughtful contributions to our discussions. The democratic creative process that fcdc employs is unique and part of the reason I love working with this company. Lindsay Wakayama, a dancer that joined us this year, believes that the company and the work “benefits from listening to everyone’s opinions.” Because we are all able to contribute to the life and creation of a piece, each performer feels a sense of ownership. I feel this is especially true about this new work. Savannah Foltz-Colhour, one of our newest members, commented that our process has been “rewarding and makes the movement seem even more relatable.” Savannah says she looks forward to what will come from each rehearsal, and I can’t agree more.
The ideas we’re exploring are big and ripe with potential, both physically and intellectually. But the movement that we’ve generated is very exciting to me. Every week at rehearsal, I’m in awe of how willing each person is to be truthful, vulnerable, and open to sharing their experiences. Rosie Ortega, who has been dancing with us for about a year, said that despite the challenges of our theme, she feels like she has “a strong support system” in the people with whom she makes art. For me, one of the most rewarding parts of starting a new piece with fcdc is discovering new things about the people I dance with. Another new member, Maylise Urrutia, added, “the greater the relationship we have with each other, the more our dance language can really speak to viewers”.
I’m nervous, excited, and curious to share this new work with an audience, and looking forward to our very first home season with this very special piece.
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
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Hope you can come out and see a show! More musings on the process will follow in a later post...once we're done with the craziness of producing the actual performances!
< 3 Claire
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Hunting for transformation
I think the phrase is actually "haunting old stomping grounds," but I keep turning it over in my head as "stomping old hunting grounds" or alternatively "stamping old hunting grounds" or maybe even "hunting old stamping grounds"...but whatever the actual colloquialism turns out to be, the nuances of each of these images feels appropriate to some aspect of my return to the dance studios at SCU as a guest choreographer.
Passing between studios and wandering the halls of Mayer, I see ghosts of my self and of my friends as students, discovering new ways of moving, thinking, and relating to each other in the spaces where we spent so much of our college years. We thought we knew everything, and it was simultaneously becoming clear that we hardly knew anything at all.
I heard Martin Luther King Jr.'s voice in the background of a radio story I was vaguely spacing out to in the car on one of my long commutes home one night. His words washed over me and began to pick up speed on the tide of melodic cadences, and suddenly I was sitting upright, paying attention. Suddenly I was drowning in the resonance of the words surrounding this idea of a "transformed nonconformist". I came up for air too late to hear the name of the radio program or the name of the host, or any solid information that may have helped me on my many months-long search for the audio (which I still haven't found).
I was able to find out that the speech I had heard was actually this sermon. He spoke of morality and the source of an individual's beliefs about right and wrong. He talked about turning to face the people, society, or moral system that has shaped your beliefs with a critical eye, and delving deeply into a study of what ideals you hold most dear. It made me wonder, where do we get our sense of justice from? Is there a place in our own hearts or souls that is untouched by the influence of others, where our morals truly live? Without the ethical histories of our upbringing, experience, or relationships to divinity, what is it that shapes our notions of what is good, what is intolerable, what is just?
I set out to create a piece with the dancers at SCU that explores the idea of transformation. I asked them, and myself, "what did you once believe, that you no longer feel is true?" What does the word transformation imply, and do you consider yourself to be a nonconformist? Is that necessarily a good or bad title, something to aspire to? As usual, I have way more questions than answers...perhaps I have only questions and NO answers, and that's why I choreograph in the first place.
It feels both ironic and poignant to me that I ask these questions in that location. It's as if I'm still hunting on those same grounds that I traversed in college...I'm still searching for my voice, still wondering how, why, and for whom I make dances. The ground is reverberating under stamping and stomping feet as we figure out just what it means to pursue our own transformation, and who or what we want to be when we "grow up". The joyful noise of these explorations has fueled me in a multi-layered way that I'm sure I'll continue to unwrap as Images comes to a close, and beyond.
I'd love to see you at a show! Come see the piece Feb. 7-10 and please let me know what you see in it!
< 3 Claire
Passing between studios and wandering the halls of Mayer, I see ghosts of my self and of my friends as students, discovering new ways of moving, thinking, and relating to each other in the spaces where we spent so much of our college years. We thought we knew everything, and it was simultaneously becoming clear that we hardly knew anything at all.
I heard Martin Luther King Jr.'s voice in the background of a radio story I was vaguely spacing out to in the car on one of my long commutes home one night. His words washed over me and began to pick up speed on the tide of melodic cadences, and suddenly I was sitting upright, paying attention. Suddenly I was drowning in the resonance of the words surrounding this idea of a "transformed nonconformist". I came up for air too late to hear the name of the radio program or the name of the host, or any solid information that may have helped me on my many months-long search for the audio (which I still haven't found).
I was able to find out that the speech I had heard was actually this sermon. He spoke of morality and the source of an individual's beliefs about right and wrong. He talked about turning to face the people, society, or moral system that has shaped your beliefs with a critical eye, and delving deeply into a study of what ideals you hold most dear. It made me wonder, where do we get our sense of justice from? Is there a place in our own hearts or souls that is untouched by the influence of others, where our morals truly live? Without the ethical histories of our upbringing, experience, or relationships to divinity, what is it that shapes our notions of what is good, what is intolerable, what is just?
I set out to create a piece with the dancers at SCU that explores the idea of transformation. I asked them, and myself, "what did you once believe, that you no longer feel is true?" What does the word transformation imply, and do you consider yourself to be a nonconformist? Is that necessarily a good or bad title, something to aspire to? As usual, I have way more questions than answers...perhaps I have only questions and NO answers, and that's why I choreograph in the first place.
It feels both ironic and poignant to me that I ask these questions in that location. It's as if I'm still hunting on those same grounds that I traversed in college...I'm still searching for my voice, still wondering how, why, and for whom I make dances. The ground is reverberating under stamping and stomping feet as we figure out just what it means to pursue our own transformation, and who or what we want to be when we "grow up". The joyful noise of these explorations has fueled me in a multi-layered way that I'm sure I'll continue to unwrap as Images comes to a close, and beyond.
I'd love to see you at a show! Come see the piece Feb. 7-10 and please let me know what you see in it!
< 3 Claire
Friday, February 24, 2012
Yes, I could go for a 3rd viewing...
I've never had much of a desire to watch award shows. Sure, in the back of my mind I register when they're on and I want to see what everyone is wearing and watch the performances, but I don't get all that excited. Unless Idina Menzel is singing at the Tonys or something.
But this year I actually wish I was going to be home to watch the Academy Awards. Because PINA has been nominated for Best Documentary Feature, and I have a strange sense of pride in that fact. I guess this must be how sports fans feel...and to think I always raise an eyebrow when they say "we won"!
PINA was breathtaking...awe-inspiring...best movie of the year...yup all those adjectives that describe so tritely an experience that obviously goes beyond words. Well my capacity for words anyway.
Go see this film.
Dancer or not...go see it. Actually I'd like to hijack the next episode of So You Think You Can Dance and broadcast it instead. Those things are like 2 hours long right? Now THAT would truly educate the masses.
I think what struck me most about PINA was not the 3D (which was absolutely brilliant) or the elaborate stagings and beautiful cinematography, but the rawness that underscored all of Pina Bausch's work. It's in her dancers' ability to sit in front of a camera practically motionless, without saying a word, and express the deepness of sorrow in mourning, the complexity of laughing when you want to cry, and the elation of feeling capable of love and filled with strength. It's in her choreography as it always has been, but it's also in the solos created by her dancers, who eulogize her with heartfelt evidence of how dancing for her has peeled away the layers of artifice and left only artistry: human, vulnerable, articulate, captivating.
Anyway I'm gushing. Obviously I want to make a dance film now. I actually always have, and especially since 2009 when I created a dance called Buoyancy on ten UCI undergraduate dancers. It's about my experience working with a community in Nicaragua, and all that they taught me about survival and humanity, and I've always seen it in vignettes. Parts of it happening in the shallows of a river, others in the dirt roads of a tiny village, still others in a landfill that is juxtaposed hauntingly with the beautiful and awesome natural force of a smouldering volcano in the background...someday!
Thanks for the inspiration Pina...now and always. And come this Sunday, GO TEAM MODERN DANCE!!!
<3 Claire
But this year I actually wish I was going to be home to watch the Academy Awards. Because PINA has been nominated for Best Documentary Feature, and I have a strange sense of pride in that fact. I guess this must be how sports fans feel...and to think I always raise an eyebrow when they say "we won"!
PINA was breathtaking...awe-inspiring...best movie of the year...yup all those adjectives that describe so tritely an experience that obviously goes beyond words. Well my capacity for words anyway.
Go see this film.
Dancer or not...go see it. Actually I'd like to hijack the next episode of So You Think You Can Dance and broadcast it instead. Those things are like 2 hours long right? Now THAT would truly educate the masses.
I think what struck me most about PINA was not the 3D (which was absolutely brilliant) or the elaborate stagings and beautiful cinematography, but the rawness that underscored all of Pina Bausch's work. It's in her dancers' ability to sit in front of a camera practically motionless, without saying a word, and express the deepness of sorrow in mourning, the complexity of laughing when you want to cry, and the elation of feeling capable of love and filled with strength. It's in her choreography as it always has been, but it's also in the solos created by her dancers, who eulogize her with heartfelt evidence of how dancing for her has peeled away the layers of artifice and left only artistry: human, vulnerable, articulate, captivating.
Anyway I'm gushing. Obviously I want to make a dance film now. I actually always have, and especially since 2009 when I created a dance called Buoyancy on ten UCI undergraduate dancers. It's about my experience working with a community in Nicaragua, and all that they taught me about survival and humanity, and I've always seen it in vignettes. Parts of it happening in the shallows of a river, others in the dirt roads of a tiny village, still others in a landfill that is juxtaposed hauntingly with the beautiful and awesome natural force of a smouldering volcano in the background...someday!
Thanks for the inspiration Pina...now and always. And come this Sunday, GO TEAM MODERN DANCE!!!
<3 Claire
Friday, December 9, 2011
Tina Fey on standards of beauty
I'm reading Bossypants by Tina Fey right now, which is such a great read, and I thought this passage was smart and appropriate and hilarious so I had to share it.
This is Tina's "laundry list of attributes women must have to qualify as beautiful":
- Caucasian blue eyes
- full Spanish lips
- a classic button nose
- hairless Asian skin with a California tan
- a Jamaican dance hall ass
- long Swedish legs
- small Japanese feet
- the abs of a lesbian gym owner
- the hips of a nine-year old boy
- the arms of Michelle Obama
- and doll tits
I hope you enjoyed that as much as I did =).
<3 Claire
<3 Claire
P.S. no plans on Sunday? Come and talk dance and eat cupcakes with me...doesn't that sound dreamy? 2nd Sundays @ CounterPULSE
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